Well, I finally strapped on a pair of balls and asked someone I like a great deal where I fit into their lives. A friend, a friend with fun online benefits, etc? And while their answer was ambiguous (and I figured it would be since they are in an emotional upheavel due to a recent divorce) it was satisfying and I am happy I asked. I feel a small burden has been lifted and since we talked for an hour after I blurted my not-too-subtle question, that things are still alright and the friendship undamaged.
I think I will research things like magic jack today too see if I can call Canada without using skype or my cell phone within it's yearly f